Met a guy who fixed my phone screen today. I offered to make him a new business card to match the iPhone 6 so he discounted me half off (fyeah). Then he asked me if I want to freelance with his cousin who manages social media for half the businesses in Astoria… said maybe. THEN referred him to my web designer to help him make a new website.

Three levels of using each other here, wow haha


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It is 8:30 am. I feel like I’m hallucinating.

So THAT OTHER PHOTOGRAPHER who has yet to be mentioned on tumblr but most of you know him anyway offered to let me shoot his boyfriend, who is a professional and signed model and has been shot by so many photographers in NYC who are MUCH more talented than me.

Oh my god. Shut up. I didn’t even ask for this. Why are you being so good to me.


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From Matt’s recent shoots! His style has refined a bit since when I originally saw his work. So much more high fashion and the retouching is just GORGE.


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THIS WEEK IN MY LIFE:I got to meet one of my favorite photographers last week. Technically, my first week in the city I met TWO of my favorite fashion photographers but the other will get his own post next time I see him!This is Matt Monath.When I first came across Matt’s work, I swear his website was tabbed for days. I’d keep looking at his site because I was so in awe over his creations. He blew my mind. I indulge and consume so much media, but Matt produces work I never knew could exist. He mainly shoots studio and uses really colorful lighting set-ups. The results are the most vibrant and stunning images I’ve ever seen.Matt’s work has had such a profound influence on my own photography. I wasn’t much of a studio photographer in the beginning of 2014. However, after seeing his stuff I practiced with studio lighting and was able to produce images that pushed my aesthetic. I did a shoot with my friend Aja in March heavily mimicking Matt’s style.
At the time I was just trying to see if I could do it. His work intrigued me so much, lit a fire in my mind. I had to try. This was only the second time I had ever worked with lights and I learned so, so much. This shoot I did with Aja is one of my most popular. Many times this year I was approached by clients who referenced this image as the one that “sold” them to work with me.Plus, after that shoot I was so much more confident working in the studio. I’ve done something like seven studio shoots from May-July, which I can honestly say all started with Matt.Please check out Matt’s STUNNING work! 
http://mattmonath.com
And stop by his tumblr, "America Meet Matt."

THIS WEEK IN MY LIFE:

I got to meet one of my favorite photographers last week. Technically, my first week in the city I met TWO of my favorite fashion photographers but the other will get his own post next time I see him!

This is Matt Monath.

When I first came across Matt’s work, I swear his website was tabbed for days. I’d keep looking at his site because I was so in awe over his creations. He blew my mind. I indulge and consume so much media, but Matt produces work I never knew could exist. He mainly shoots studio and uses really colorful lighting set-ups. The results are the most vibrant and stunning images I’ve ever seen.

Matt’s work has had such a profound influence on my own photography. I wasn’t much of a studio photographer in the beginning of 2014. However, after seeing his stuff I practiced with studio lighting and was able to produce images that pushed my aesthetic.

I did a shoot with my friend Aja in March heavily mimicking Matt’s style.


At the time I was just trying to see if I could do it. His work intrigued me so much, lit a fire in my mind. I had to try. This was only the second time I had ever worked with lights and I learned so, so much. This shoot I did with Aja is one of my most popular. Many times this year I was approached by clients who referenced this image as the one that “sold” them to work with me.

Plus, after that shoot I was so much more confident working in the studio. I’ve done something like seven studio shoots from May-July, which I can honestly say all started with Matt.

Please check out Matt’s STUNNING work! 

http://mattmonath.com

And stop by his tumblr, "America Meet Matt."


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Got asked out on 3 dates today.

These NY men don’t play.


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Some progress though:

Met not one, but TWO of my favorite fashion photographers this week. Got to join one in the studio as he shot the 3rd and final part of his most precious series. Met the other one at a ritzy as ffffffff club. Don’t know him too well yet but here’s to hoping I can spend more time with him in the future. 

Met a fashion designer today. First time ever meeting someone who worked in that industry. It was interesting to hear his perspective and what he had to do to get where he is. Not to mention his sketches are gorgeous.

This last part has yet to be proved as good/bad, but I made a ballsy ass decision when moving to New York, finance-wise. It’s something that could make my career or ruin me. I still don’t know how it will work out but the previously mentioned beloved photographer commended my choice. He does know of another photographer who has followed the same path. I really hope I made the right choice, but I need to work for it too. Now’s the time to prove how much I want it.


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First Week in The City

It’s been rough.

The general feeling of displacement is something I can’t escape, even after unpacking my possessions. This doesn’t feel real. And I guess it’s not supposed to yet.

Not having a friend circle here or any type of established support is emotionally crippling. My friend picked up on it. She knew how much of a rough time I was having just with moving in. She told me having to do all those things by myself would make me stronger. And it has. It’s always been that way. But I want a break.

This year I had to attend my own graduation alone. I didn’t see my family that day. It was okay when I had to move into college all by myself; maybe one day I’ll say it was okay I had to move to New York by myself. I like being alone but that’s not it. I’m lonely. I can’t get peace of mind no matter how comfortable I am. Everything feels so temporary and I’m struggling to establish a life here.

I know, it’s only been one week. But it’s been a long and trying one. I’m feeling it. My inner fire feels less red, less warm, less bright. I probably sound so weak, but I’m not okay. Every day I try to change that, put on the exterior that will get me to a better day, but it’s so wearing.

I don’t want this to start now. A few years ago I had an epiphany of something I hadn’t even experienced. 

I wonder why we must live in a world where we become disillusioned, and our maturity is measured by how we handle that.”

Maybe I’m experiencing that now. The disillusionment. I’m begging myself not to lose it, the self-sustained intensity that allows me to thrive as I do. I’m not doing so well. Just… not.

Maybe tomorrow, or a tomorrow following today’s tomorrow will be different.


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f(x) Red Light

The editorial vibes are mad strong in this video. Loved every second of it.


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f(x) Red Light: Luna

That one time Luna became the hottest member of f(x). I really like her look right now. Softness yet such hard edge.


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f(x) Red Light: Sulli



There are some times when Sulli looks positively breathtaking. Like here.


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